I have reached an artistic drought!!! Thats why i havent been on in forever. everything that comes to mind leaves just as soon as it arrives. all my ideas are gone. if anyone has any ideas please let me know!!!! i needs to put pen and paper together!!! they are romeo and juliet!!! starcrossed lovas!!! lol.

Ok for like the past month and a half ive been chillin in florida. yes florida!!!! happy sunshine state with loads of stuff to do...... wrong!!!!!!!!!! ive been stuck at the house watching my dad and his wife go to work while i sit here in ultimate boredom. ive beaten all my gamecube games again, two of my playstation games again, and slept for 16 hrs a day since i got here. now i find out that to go home i have to fly to virginia to meet up with my grandmother and uncle(who happens to be a pain in my rear) and drive 14 hrs back to louisiana!!!!!!!!!!! they plan to stop at a hotel half way there so i get to spend two days on the road with them plus another week or so at my house with them. im gonna be a broken woman when i get home. my uncle thinks its funny to call me rita when my name is ciarra. (rita is short for retard. i dont get it either. lol) maybe oneday my life wont suck.

omg. since i have been here my mom has let me use her credit card for anything i want, well she left out the part where i have to pay her back.!!!!!! im fucking broke. i spent well over 600 dollars on shit i didnt even need!!!!!! plus i have a cell phone bill and car insurance to pay. life sucks eggs sometimes. im gonna be giving her my pay check for two months to pay this one off. lol

okay i have recently gotten .... (dramatic music) A JOB!!!!!!!!( high pitched scream) so my chances of getting online are short to none. i have no luck. my hours are usually between 3 and 8 pm. which totally excludes internet time at the library. im so stressed. my brother isn't doing well and his brain is taking on fluid again. he is also having trouble holding down his food so he isn't eating well. if anyone actually reads my journals i would apreciate any and all prayers that go towards my brother and my family. and i thank all of the people who have come to be my friends on deviant and deviant itself for giving me a place to creatively express my anguish and for an arm to cry on.

Okay i made it home a week ago but im still like uber happy. You do not know how happy i is. I also dyed my hair and now look like hikaru from Hikaru no go. lol. i look like a guy. Nice. neways i plan on taking the blond streaks and turning them red so i look like someone cool and not a doober.